Last night I binged. I know, I’m horrible, disgusting, and weak. But I’ve decided that every time I binge I am going to write the food here to hold myself accountable.
1 mango Popsicle
3 coconut Popsicles
1 microwavable pot pie
200 calories of soup
This is one of my less destructive binges, but I /really/ needed to purge afterwards and somehow managed not to. Thank god, because I can already tell that that would have been an awful idea.
I feel so bloated and disgusting, it’s like someone has just shoved a rock into my stomach. I hate being full so much, I’d rather die. Honestly. I got drunk a few days back and drank so much I puked my guts out because I had to get rid of it some way, right? It was really gross because after I threw up because of the alcohol I kept making myself purgeΒ to get rid of all of it. I was REALLY drunk. Not fun. I also had to purge in a hotel bathroom a few days ago because a “friend” of mine (read: competitive anorexic/bulimic bitch of a friend) named Carly practically forced me to eat so I threw up that too. I hate purging and I hate eating so I eat as little as I possibly can but even doing that sometimes leads to a full scale binge later in the day. My best bet for losing weight is to just stop eating altogether.
Stay Strong, everyone π
~Robin β€